SEAN SHOULD SAY HOORAY.

right. i don't really remember why. but this post is dedicated to SEAN and how i should right about how much i love him just to please him and make him happy. so. please dont kill me. and since its supposed to be a really long post. forgive me if i digress. i tend to do that. so lets just get on with the list so as to why i love his fella.

• he is mad. i swear he is.
• he has the uncanny ability to make me agree to anything. i seriously have no idea how he does it. from me only owing him one thing. it goes up to five things. and now its twenty-two. and it was only a span of two day. its either he's good. or i'm just plain stupid. or both. he is good because i'm plain stupid. i think it works that way. i don't know.
• he accompany's me until my nails get dry.
  
• me makes me laugh. even after me makes me cry he makes me laugh. gosh. i think i sound like a physopath. laughing and crying all. sean! all your fault!
• he gives me alot alot of nice songs. and its because i bug him for it. but he asks for nothing in return.
• he teaches me chem. and has the ability to make me feel really really stupid. but at least i know my hydro carbons now!
• he sings to me all the time.
  
• and he writes beautiful songs and sing them to me too. i swear he has talent.
• and then he starts singing all the emo songs and get me all emotional and i get emotional dreams.
  
• he keeps me grounded. never afraid to tell me whats so horrible about me and that i should change to become a better person.
  
• he's always there to listen to me cry. no matter how busy he is. he's always there for me.
  
• he buys me chocolates.
• he made feel what he was like to be human. because if i never knew him to this extent. i guess i would have broken down. and ended up in a rehab instead of her. and he was the one there for me when i fell sick. when i almost went crazy. when i though i was. he was there.
  
• he has a wig for hair. and marcus was the one who said that. remember the time when you had short spikey hair? that was nice! and you look cleaned up. but no complaints here.
  
• he was a really adorable baby! he was really cute young. look above if you don't believe me.
  

gosh. if i were to go on. i think the list will be never ending. it will keep going on and on and on. but i guess a thank you is in due. for so much. everything you've done. the good, the bad. the catastrophic and the amazing things you have done. nd no one can deny the face that you have done so much for me. i love you for who you are. for being so open with me. although not really open. but i'm glad. that God has given me a friend like this to journey with me in this lifetime. i feel blessed. but not when you bully me. and call me fat. but you challenge me for the better.

and you emo songs! ________ wedding! basket. i dreamt of it. and i dreamt that she was trying to kill me on her bloody wedding. its not funny k!

i haven't really sung to you in a long time. hahas. i guess i'm the shy one. i don't intend to sing anymore. hahas. cause i sound horrible. so its alright. no point asking me to sing.
but don't forget. you're going to sing me that really nice song you wrote. the one you sang to me. on my birthday. i want that song alright? pretty please with a cherry on top!
but remember. i'm always here. because i rock. and because i love you!


and this song.
i shall put it up.
because of i finally know what i means;

i guess there's only one place to go from here.
i think the options are clear anyway.
i'm sure you're <strike>tired of waiting for me.
to figure out where you fit in.
i guess i'm afraid of what we could be.
cause i don't want to sell you short on your dreams.
i'm sorry for making you wait for me.
cause i don't want to hold you down.
but i don't want to set you free.
i don't want to make you run from me.
i guess its hard to believe that i
could make myself give up.
after all this time you and me.
trying hard to make sense of our differences.
pretending we both have everything.
i guess we both believed in our fantasy.
you only love the one you wanted me to be.
i'm sorry for breaking your faith in me.
i don't want to hold you down.
but what if you're more than i could please.
can you accept apologies?
i don't want to squander all you time.
i don't want to mislead you.
i think we both that it was done.
sorry i had to be the one.
sometimes i wish it was the other way around.
i wish you weren't supposed to be set free.

set free
;craig's brothers.


i was crying even after i was reading the lyrics to this songs. unbelievable that it holds so much truth. i think we both know that it was done. but i guess i accept apologies. you were worth the wait. you atill are. and it doesn't matter. because what was in the past should remain in the past.and no matter what. my faith in you remains.
but after all this time. you should know that you're worth the effort.